[Now that makes him falter and nearly drop the dish, but he quickly tightens his grip on it and gawks.
He's not going deaf, is he? Did he just hear Saïx of all people just apologize to him? Demyx stares for a long minute and wordlessly takes the sauce, before he cocks his head and squints.]
[Now, that sort of reaction - especially from Demyx - should be expected. And because it should be expected, it shouldn't sting as much as it clearly, clearly does. But there he is, almost wincing in response to the reaction.
Becuase of course Saïx didn't apologize to him. He wouldn't for something as inconsequential as that... or even at all, honestly. But Isa did apologize.
Yeah, not a song and dance he's looking forward to doing as often as he probably will have to.]
[Were this any other Nobody, Demyx might've risked the classic hand-to-forehead stunt to see if he had a fever, but since this isn't one of the others who he knows, he abstains.
But it's not keeping him from giving him the same weird look, and now there's even some mild - mild - concern.]
'Cause I can count on one hand the number of times you've actually said sorry to me. You, uh... didn't hit your head on anything, did you?
The word makes him drop his gaze down to the food, and he gives himself a few moments to give it a nibble while it sinks in. He avoided getting involved in the fight by going with Vexen, but that also meant he's one of the few Nobodies left, doesn't it?]
So you... have your heart back?
[He had his for a time, and then he became a Nobody again - why? He doesn't completely know. Maybe he really did get sweet talked into it, but dying the first time against Sora had been bad enough. Could he do it again? Maybe, maybe not.
Still, Nobody or not, there's no denying the actual pang of jealousy he feels. Of all the people--]
How worried do I have to be?
[It slips out before he can catch himself in time, and he cringes inwardly.]
That shift in attitude is palpable, and has Isa cutting his gaze away. Supposedly, Nobodies couldn't feel, but he knew better than that firsthand, and Demyx was never good at pretending he didn't.
'We do too have hearts.'
He can't help but feel like he should apologize, but... for what? Getting his heart back? An insincere apology at best. For hurting him with his comment? He'd already made Demyx concerned in the first place, and that would probably just make it worse.
...So he avoids it entirely, going on from then on as if he hadn't noticed, though he can't quite re-initiate eye contact.]
I do.
[The question comes, and while Demyx might cringe internally, Isa cringes outwardly. It's a fair question, but it still stings.]
[Light, how does he say it? Butting heads with people like Larxene is one thing - he can at least stand toe to toe with her even if it's only for a hot second, but people like Saix were different.
They were scarier.
He always had a hard time reading Saix, and this time was no different.]
You know. How things were with us back in the Organization. The first time around, that is. We weren't really friends, but...
[He trails off with some uncertainty. During his early days as a Nobody, Demyx had wanted to befriend everyone but that didn't quite happen as he had hoped. Maybe this time could be different? Strained, perhaps, but different.]
[He gets it - or, well, he thinks he gets it, as much as he's ever 'gotten' Demyx.
They weren't friends back then. He didn't want friends back then, and bought in wholly to the idea that they couldn't have emotions, so trying to forge friendships was... useless. Hollow.
Now, though? He knows that wasn't quite true, and he did way too many people a disservice in being like that.]
We're not in the Organization anymore.
[There's no reason for him to be as ambitious and hungry for approval as he had been, and... hopefully there's less reason for Demyx to be scared of him.
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[Well, that's... understandable. He'd probably be just as weirded out if their positions were reversed, honestly.]
I apologize.
[For. Throwing him off. At least Demyx gets snacks out of it, though maybe that just makes it all that much more awkward... oh no.
He can pass over more soy sauce at least, though. That's easy enough.]
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He's not going deaf, is he? Did he just hear Saïx of all people just apologize to him? Demyx stares for a long minute and wordlessly takes the sauce, before he cocks his head and squints.]
...Are you feeling okay?
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Becuase of course Saïx didn't apologize to him. He wouldn't for something as inconsequential as that... or even at all, honestly. But Isa did apologize.
Yeah, not a song and dance he's looking forward to doing as often as he probably will have to.]
Yes?
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[Were this any other Nobody, Demyx might've risked the classic hand-to-forehead stunt to see if he had a fever, but since this isn't one of the others who he knows, he abstains.
But it's not keeping him from giving him the same weird look, and now there's even some mild - mild - concern.]
'Cause I can count on one hand the number of times you've actually said sorry to me. You, uh... didn't hit your head on anything, did you?
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[But maybe not for too much longer, because that weird look and concern - no matter how mild it is!! - still isn't all that nice.
It's kind of tempting to just walk away at this point, but... no. They can struggle through this so it won't happen again with Demyx, at least.
...Probably.]
Not unless being recompleted counts.
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The word makes him drop his gaze down to the food, and he gives himself a few moments to give it a nibble while it sinks in. He avoided getting involved in the fight by going with Vexen, but that also meant he's one of the few Nobodies left, doesn't it?]
So you... have your heart back?
[He had his for a time, and then he became a Nobody again - why? He doesn't completely know. Maybe he really did get sweet talked into it, but dying the first time against Sora had been bad enough. Could he do it again? Maybe, maybe not.
Still, Nobody or not, there's no denying the actual pang of jealousy he feels. Of all the people--]
How worried do I have to be?
[It slips out before he can catch himself in time, and he cringes inwardly.]
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That shift in attitude is palpable, and has Isa cutting his gaze away. Supposedly, Nobodies couldn't feel, but he knew better than that firsthand, and Demyx was never good at pretending he didn't.
'We do too have hearts.'
He can't help but feel like he should apologize, but... for what? Getting his heart back? An insincere apology at best. For hurting him with his comment? He'd already made Demyx concerned in the first place, and that would probably just make it worse.
...So he avoids it entirely, going on from then on as if he hadn't noticed, though he can't quite re-initiate eye contact.]
I do.
[The question comes, and while Demyx might cringe internally, Isa cringes outwardly. It's a fair question, but it still stings.]
Depends... what are you worried about?
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[Light, how does he say it? Butting heads with people like Larxene is one thing - he can at least stand toe to toe with her even if it's only for a hot second, but people like Saix were different.
They were scarier.
He always had a hard time reading Saix, and this time was no different.]
You know. How things were with us back in the Organization. The first time around, that is. We weren't really friends, but...
[He trails off with some uncertainty. During his early days as a Nobody, Demyx had wanted to befriend everyone but that didn't quite happen as he had hoped. Maybe this time could be different? Strained, perhaps, but different.]
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[He gets it - or, well, he thinks he gets it, as much as he's ever 'gotten' Demyx.
They weren't friends back then. He didn't want friends back then, and bought in wholly to the idea that they couldn't have emotions, so trying to forge friendships was... useless. Hollow.
Now, though? He knows that wasn't quite true, and he did way too many people a disservice in being like that.]
We're not in the Organization anymore.
[There's no reason for him to be as ambitious and hungry for approval as he had been, and... hopefully there's less reason for Demyx to be scared of him.
Being human again is hard.]